Hi, I am a 62 year old father of one. I am the first to say that my parenting skills were at best mediocre and at worst none existent. I was divorced when my daughter Jodi was only 4 years old and I never seen her again until she was at Secondary school. I love my daughter very much indeed but I think the damage has been done. My world came to an end when in 2002 I was imprisoned for 4 years, I won't go into my crime but needless to say I am very ashamed of my past and it has cost me dearly. I met my daughter again in 2009 and it was very moving but things went well and I met my newest Grandchildren for the 1st time and we got on well. However in 2010 I told my daughter a few truths and this broke her confidence in me and since then we have lost contact altogether.
I'm not looking for sympathy but I am thinking to myself why did this happen? She is now 30 years old and I thought she would be able to handle what I told her. Now I think I've lost her for good (I hope not).
I have attempted to write a book about my life and that of my daughter but I have lost interest in this project now but I might try again in the future. Of course I would like to complete it with the help of her as she has gone through a lot during her life as well. She is a wonderful mother to her children but I do worry about her. Perhaps I will never see her again and if that is to be the way it is, I can only hope her future life turns out better better than her past. My daughter is my life and of course I will never forget her and those few moments we had together will always be with me. If there is anyone who reads this, has gone through something similar would care to get in touch I would be very grateful.
